- Mood:
Defeated
I've been away from DA a lot lately. I have been working on some small art projects though, just nothing I want to post here. I have modified two of my gab pieces that I posted here and will eventually get pictures of the improved pieces.
We just got back from Highlands War. I entered my Dub Marche necklace into the A&S contest. I did not win but the judges comments were mainly positive and very helpful so that next time I may do better.
I'm still working on that possible commission, and there is some one who would like me to paint a fairy for them so that will be getting started soon. I have not got any thing to post though.
I have been concentration on just living lately. We have had some major financial set backs. I am also possibly suffering from PTSD. Not sure because I have not had the chance to talk to a doctor but a lot of the symptoms are there. Mostly I display Hyperarousal and Avoidance symptoms. Which means that I am constantly worked up, and on edge. I scare easily and am quick to anger. I have trouble sleeping and concentrating as well as other symptoms. I tend to avoid having arguments with men in general but also with just about anyone. I avoid any type of confrontation that could lead to yelling or fighting. When I feel threatened I start to shake and I feel like I can't breath. My heart pounds and my face turns red.
So I'm just trying to figure out whats going on with me and how to deal with it. I will try to get some work done and post it here but don't hold your breath.